The past two weeks have been surreal. I just returned home from traveling to ten different cities, playing ten sold out concerts with the RAC live band. Throughout the entire process, from snuggling up in the van for hours while traveling into the next city, to loading into a venue and seeing it entirely empty, to pre-show butterflies, to stepping out on stage to absolutely electric crowds, to the adrenaline rush from playing that kept me up until the wee hours of the morning.. I loved and embraced it all. I had this strange, new feeling throughout the tour. It’s hard to describe, but I felt like I was exactly where I was supposed to be, completely in my element.
To give you an idea of where I’m coming from, I’ve loved music and performing since I was a kid. I began classical piano lessons at the age of seven, and also picked up flute, guitar, mandolin, and bass from then through high school. I loved theater and landed lead roles in musicals throughout middle school and high school (yup, total nerd).
I started writing music as a teenager and played in several bands throughout high school and college. I met André of RAC in college after he remixed a song by my band at the time. I loved the remix and had to meet him. We hit it off and soon after I joined a synth pop band that he and Karl Kling (also of RAC) had formed called The Pragmatic.
We had some minor success and continued playing together after college, but things eventually sort of fizzled out. I continued writing songs in the meantime, but kept them mostly to myself. I don’t know if I can explain it, but it felt like the longer I was away from the spotlight, the scarier it seemed to put myself out there again. I attended this singer/songwriter show-and-tell among friends last year and was a nervous, shaky mess just playing one song. Despite that, over time I found myself feeling this sort of reoccurring longing to be performing again. I found out that André was toying around with the idea of turning RAC into a live show, and I jumped at the opportunity to play in the band. I also decided it was time for my little song ideas to escape the confines of my voice recorder and turn them into real recordings. From recording scratch vocals for some original songs and having the first band practice with RAC this summer, to putting out my first single as Pink Feathers and playing ten shows with RAC in the past two weeks, you could say I’m no longer in hiding. I’m out there. It’s freaking scary. And I hope this is just the beginning.